Heaven is the face

Heaven is the face of a little girl
With dark brown eyes
That disappear when she smiles.
Heaven is the place
Where she calls my name
Says, “Daddy please come play with me for awhile.”

God, I know, it’s all of this and so much more,
But God, You know, that this is what I’m aching for.
God, you know, I just can’t see beyond the door.
So right now...

Heaven is the sound of her breathing deep,
Lying on my chest, falling fast asleep while I sing.
And Heaven is the weight of her in my arms,
Being there to keep her safe from harm while she dreams

And God, I know, it’s all of this and so much more,
But God, You know, that this is what I’m longing for
God, you know, I just can’t see beyond the door.

But in my mind’s eye I can see a place
Where Your glory fills every empty space.
All the cancer is gone,
Every mouth is fed,
And there’s no one left in the orphans’ bed.
Every lonely heart finds their one true love,
And there’s no more goodbye,
And no more not enough,
And there’s no more enemy.

Heaven is a sweet, maple syrup kiss
And a thousand other little things I miss with her gone.
Heaven is the place where she takes my hand
And leads me to You,
And we both run into Your arms.

Oh God, I know, it’s so much more than I can dream.
It’s far beyond anything I can conceive.
So God, You know, I’m trusting You until I see
Heaven in the face of my little girl,
Heaven in the face of my little girl.

Written by Steven Curitis Chapman after an accident killed his 5 year old daughter last year. 

This song (and story) is especially striking to me because his beautiful little girl could have been me... in fact, it was me... only I lived to tell my story.  Lived to come up with questions, lived to cry myself to sleep, lived to realize life is not fair.  But I guess when the children don't make it, it's the parents who take on the story, questions, tears, and realizations. The agony of it all.

 Here's the end of my story...

Heaven is the face of a little girl
With dark brown eyes
That illuimate the world
Heaven is the place
Where she is now free
Where it's always enough, she'll have no tears
Only life

Heaven is the sound of her sighing in peace
Lying on my chest, rocking her to sleep as I sing
And Heaven is the air she can finally breathe
She's found the answers and all her hopes fulfilled

Heaven is a sweet, sunshiney day
And a thousand other little things I miss with her gone
Heaven is the place where she waits
She'll take me to you
One day,

       right into Your arms